gotta get away | dragonflykist's Blog

so after all i have gone through and am still going through, i cannot find support from my husband. when he is the cause for most of my misery. he doesnt even want to hear my voice while he watches football. so here i am in my room. hiding. 
i have not shared a room or bed with my husband in 2 years. we rarely have sex. because i hate him. the last time we did  i got pregnant. he wanted me to abort. so i did. i was happy about being pregnant, sure it made me feel terrible and i was struggling with it. but i did what he wanted, i hate him more now.
i want out of here.
i want to be the me i was years before i met him. 
how did i become so stupid in the first place?